A clean diet would transform things for me. The motivation is there, the intensity is there, and the desire is there. I need to have structured weekend and I need to cook at home a pre-plan my meals. I do not feel like a victim because I own my mistakes and choices. I also decided that on May 16 until the wedding I am going back to a pescatarian diet like I did the year and a half before my first BFL challenge. I found the inability to eat certain foods really limited my choices and made eating out healthier and eating fast food barely an option. As for the amber carbs I need to remain focus on the end goal and not get caught up in the weekend mentality or feeling an unspoken peer pressure in social situation and even more important is avoiding those said situations. Not to mention I could use the money I save by avoiding it. I can picture every weekend between now and the wedding in my head.
This weekend: Denton Jazz & Arts Fest
May6-8: No plans
May 12-15: Fly to Amarillo
May 20-22: Drive to a Wedding in Southwest Missouri
May 27-29: Memorial Day Weekend and last time I will see Ellen before the week of the wedding
June 3-5: 5K in Dallas and hopefully meet DebMo
June 10-12: Bachelor Camping Trip is possible
June 17-19: Work on the weekend
June 25: Wedding!